f the world

first and foremost,thx my parent gv birth to me to the world
the world is damn fucking cruel and unfair
wat i think to do it for them as a surprise is damn f
i wan to love them,i wan gv my everythg to them
wat i did,jus a failure to them,i jus a unless to them
bcos i fail once in my life,final exam, i extend
but wat they say to me?
y u so lazy,y u so stupid,y u cant be like ur sister and brother?
i can gurantee,wat i get in the future is totally not related to them
i success bcos my team and my ownself,dun talk to me they are care me
is jus a bullshit,a lier!i no need love from them
they jus wan money,wan they child that can make they feel pround
everyone make a mistake b4,i admit,sometimes i was childish
but they even duno the reason and jus noe hw to blame and scolding
i damn fucking hate all this,i never be rude to them b4
it nt the first time to me,they hurt me alot
i damn disappointed,for a eldest brother,he can get everythg
but wat i done b4,they no prasing,jus rmb the negative thg
jus worry abt their money,accident happenend,wat they say to me?
they jus f me all the time,no even care abt me hw i feel,anythg injury
even i like the most basketball match,they not even come support me for once
but for my eldest brother,when he gt the jus a little prize they support him
and attended his celebration,is it fair for me?
i buy everythg by my own,all the fren jus think tat i m a rich guy
or a playboy,but they not even think the stories behind
i nid a ppl care abt me,but angeline did it can totally control me
i did alot changing to her,i noe tat i make her feel disappointed b4
but wat i chg nw it nt same like the pass
mayb it was truth,ppl make a mistake b4 and there will be a repeatation
but when u facing the ppl tat important in ur life
will u willing to hurt her again?love behind is hate
all the love i show jus getting painful and hurting all the time
the world is nt fair,ur result dint mean to it
even a gossip can destroy ur trust from her
i admit all the fault i did b4,i jus wan to say
if i no love u,y i willing to do all this for u
and pls to all fucking damn the fren beside
dun judge me bcos my outlook
if like tat u guys sure nt better than me
i no speak it out doesnt not mean is real to me
i jus think to make to small problem
no one can be trust in the world
money is most fact for all ppl
even include my parent
they jus love the child who can make them rich
who can earn for them and make them proud
dun talk me ur scold is caring
even a words of motivation also dun hav
caring is nt show in this way
jus complain abt my attitude
but pls think abt it,nothg will happen
if the source for u guys is wrong
i jus believe to my own
a birthday gift,vios...nw cancel it
i jus wan a freedom life
i damn fucking hate business
my talent like a shit and disappear like this
u stop me to learn music but gv all the thg to my brothers
is is fair for me?even jus a small request u guys cant make it for me
u damn hurting me
im soli for saying tat
every month i will send money for u guys as a rewards for taking care of me so long
tat all for it,ask me for caring,im soli
i cant do it,my heart was break
no more love for it and no more delaying
10k nxt month~thx all my fren,take k