dun ask me to cry

sometimes...life is getting tough and difficult when we growing up
as much as the things u learn alot,the more u feel stress
too many uncertainty had happened..too mny stories she had told me
i try my best to digest all of it,slowly and slowly...
i tot im can handle all of it,but its reali hard for me
im some kind of the person that not so easy to share for it
if i reali speak it out,it reali mean to it...
if i tell i wont cares and feelings,tat was a big lie
action speak louder than words...i choose to pretend as normal...
i choose to being that,bcs i still feel some hope and expectation to u
if u think from my view,i believe that,u bcome tough and lost confident nw...
but i try to make it better for both of us..
i duno who to share,duno who to ask for help
dis few days when i close my eye and lay on bed
the stories and voice coming through to heart
im soli for nt being straight forward to u
but i had no choice...dun ask me to cry
bcs i believe that cry is nothg...
a man like me cant drops their tear even a drop of it
still feel pain bcs of previous cases
i reali put too many effort and heart for it
but the end is ask me go away
too much of expectation make feel so tired
i noe it will b hard for me
but i still continue the journey...wont gv up
too mny pair of eyes were watching me fall down from the hill
im soli,it wont will be happen,ur discrimination jus will make me feel more stronger
super anti ppl that are flower heart! y ur heart cant jus hav a person?
cant jus b loyal?loyal so hard for u izzit?
hw can u guys can simply flirt with other ppl and hold their hands and try to b sweet?
pls fuck off,i hate it,dun ever appear in front of me
b4 u want to hurt me,pls leave me far far away,i will reali thx u
even u lie me i also accept it..leave me alone if u reali means to it